As I sit here typing this I both of my legs and feet are swollen to the point that I think my skin is going to bust open. Something bit me yesterday and is doing a number on body. Lawd have mercy, lol. So for two days now, there’s been no hiking and no tennis. That sucks, but it is what it is. On the brighter side of things, I am back down to 170 pounds and still losing. Yesterday, I tried on my jeans and every pair fit again. And when I say fit, I mean that I didn’t feel stuffed like a sardine. Thank you Lawd, thank you Lawd! I am feeling so good, I am walking around today in a sports bra and sweats. Now that’s pretty bold, but fuck it, I earned it and my tummy is almost gone thanks to my tennis playing, hiking, and low carb diet plan. I am not sure how long I can keep this up but for the time being, I am on a roll! Next month is my two year anniversary of when I first hit my weight loss goal after coming down from nearly 240 pounds and I plan to be right on track. I guess I won’t be needing that bumper sticker after all that reads: If you see this car in a fast food drive through, take picture, and please report it to the nearest authorities ASAP!” But just in case, I’ll keep it tucked in the glove compartment for good measure.
Oh and incidentally, while out hiking two weeks ago I ran into Queen Hater herself. You know the one who when she enters the room you can faintly hear the Wicked Witch of the West’s theme song playing. Well after I got over my initial shock that no one had dropped a house on her yet, I was quite taken aback by the amount of weight she had gained. At first, I laughed. I was having one of those, “so you hated on me and my accomplishments and now look at you, damn near about to collapse resting under a tree for shade sweating from every crevice in your body” moments. I know, I know, but what can I say I am human. I felt guilty about it for two days afterward because I have been there and done that and probably will gain some more weight in the future and be in the same position. The only difference, I never hated on people who succeeded in reaching their goals or tried to deter them from reaching their goals because of my own insecurity. Oh, and I never fancied myself in some imaginary contest to see who could lose the most weight. Needless to say, the guilt eventually went away. But just to be sure, for good measure and because I really did feel bad for laughing so obnoxiously, I said a silent apology because I know that wasn’t nice and I can do better. I am hoping that Karma understands that I couldn’t help but feel a little good about the situation at the time but I won’t let it happen again. Promise.
So, moving on…
It’s been a little over a year since I decided to start playing tennis. And while initially I took up the sport because someone told me I could never play, I found it to be extremely challenging. The kind of physical challenge that I needed. There’s something to be said for taking yourself outside of your comfort zone and learning something completely and utterly new. Something that you can’t Google your way through.
So day in and day out, cold or hot, I make myself go to the tennis courts everyday, now twice a day—early mornings and in the evenings. There have been days that I couldn’t even concentrate because I was so nervous and embarrassed about my game in comparison to the players on the infamous Ranch “front courts.” The “front courts” are where the Rancho tennis super stars play, lol. If you don’t have game, spare yourself the embarrassment and head to the other 8 courts behind the “front courts,” lol. But it’s all good. I am working through all of that. It’s all a part of learning the game. Most of the folks at Rancho have been playing tennis their entire lives, I have not. I am still a novice and I own that. Besides—I have a secret nightlife where after the pros have gone home for the day, I play on the “front courts.” And one day—one day, I will have enough confidence and skills to bring my game to the “front courts” in the daylight, lol. But until then…lol.
My biggest challenges these days are volleying and keeping my racket head closed. Once I can improve in both of those areas, I will feel a lot better about my game. In the meantime, I am planning on continuing to take advantage of the California sunshine and getting my time in on the courts as much as possible. I have some great hitting partners that don’t mind playing with someone that’s not as good as they are and that’s making all the difference in terms of my upping my game. It took a while for me to come out of my shell but I’ve started to socialize a little more on the tennis courts and I am not so apprehensive not about hitting with other people besides my coach LeGeorge. Besides, LeGeorge keeps telling me that the best way to improve my game is to play with people who are better than I am, which is really good advice. So thank you Byron and Lynn.
So that’s what it is people. I made a promise to myself that this summer I would take time for me and really focus on my weight loss, hiking, and playing tennis. Sure my blog has suffered a bit from my deciding to interact more in the “real” world verses the virtual world, but it’s all good. We all need a break at some point in our lives and let me tell you—like how you can go a whole year without watching your favorite soap opera and then when you do turn it back on it’s like you haven’t missed a beat. Yeah—it’s like that with all of the political and social drama and chaos going on now. The reality is that it’s not going anywhere anytime soon and the same people hating on me in June, July, and August will be around to hate on me in September so I am going to enjoy my summer. If the haters were smart—they’d do the same.